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Monday, 9 March 2015

(Almost) One Year Later

"My year in photos"...?

I’ve been here before. Everything about this situation screams déjà vu. It happened a year ago: I started this blog, posted three times and that was it. Nothing else. The irony of the situation is that the last thing I posted was all about overcoming the fear I felt towards putting myself ‘out there’ on a blog. I ended it by rhetorically asking whether or not you can be scared forever, hoping that the answer would become apparent as soon as possible. In the year that has passed since I posed that question, an answer has finally made itself clear; yes you can, but you shouldn’t let that stop you. 

Let it be known that from this moment on I am officially trying again!

If you don’t follow me on Twitter or Instagram and you’ve accidentally stumbled across this post, my name is Olly and I’m a first year English student at the University of Exeter. I put up an introductory post last January in which I (awfully) tried to describe myself, yet in the months that have passed, very little of what I wrote has changed. (That’s a distressing realisation to put into words.) I'm still the same person who's unhealthily obsessed with Sylvia Plath and Pokémon, but now I'm just a year older with (slightly) different hair. (I'm also still continuing to overuse brackets because some things never change.) I’ve wanted to blog for what seems like an eternity now, but I was held back by my own laziness and a crippling fear of change that I’ve only recently addressed and accepted.

Change terrified me, and if I’m honest, the thought of growing up still does. There’s something about being expected to like red wine and eat dark chocolate and take responsibility for your actions that makes me want to stay 18-going-on-8 forever. What I’ve learnt, however, is that the past and the future don’t exist in complete isolation. The two interact and overlap, and whilst change is unavoidable, if something is worth keeping, you make the effort to keep it. Just because everything changes doesn’t mean that everything becomes different. I wish I could tell my past self just how lucky I am to have such a supportive family and the most amazing friends I could ask for both at home and at university.

I’m in a much happier place now than when I started this blog and I have change to thank for that. I couldn’t imagine studying anything else and I feel like my life is slowly developing a sense of direction (until I graduate (I still refuse to think about growing up, though (baby steps))). No more procrastination, no more laziness and certainly no more excuses. In the immortal words of Britney Spears:


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